shock.excitement.tough decisions.

a long post that probably only my mom will enjoy! feel free to check back next time!

the title pretty much sums up the last 3 weeks of our lives. the shock set in when we found out that i am pregnant! we weren't trying and it hadn't crossed my mind that it could be possible until i realized i was almost 4 weeks late. it isn't uncommon for me to go about 7 weeks in between cycles, so i didn't think anything was up until i started feeling nauseous in mornings. i told tim i thought i was prego but i didn't want to take a test, he didn't go for that, he went and bought me one. the next morning tim woke up with a positive test in his face. like i said shock. 

the shock quickly turned into excitement. we both really want kids but didn't feel it was the best time in our lives for that step. we prayed every night that we would know when to start trying, guess we got our answer! we decided not to tell anyone for a while, haha that lasted about 3 days. it's not in our nature to hold in news like this. the more people we told the more excited we got. as we drove to joey and andreas house to tell them, tim turned to me with tears in his eyes and said, i'm so excited i'm going to cry. awww, so cute.

this brings us to the tough decisions that had to be made. we are both in school full time, and there isn't a lot of extra time to go around. i have a year and a half left, with no summer breaks, lame. tim has 2 semesters then takes the bar in july. once we sat down we realized that we would have to have someone else raise our child for the first year and a half of its life. at most i would have 2 weeks off from school- not a program that you can miss class. so who do we get to watch a new born baby? my mom volunteered, but i want her to be a grandma not a momma again. so after much talking we decided i will not be returning to school. i had mixed emotions about this only because i have been taking night classes and working for the last 3 years to get into this program. there was finally an end in sight! but after talking with my mom and my program director i couldn't feel better about our decision. i don't think i will ever wish that i would have missed out on the first years of our little ones life just to go to school. i also feel very lucky to be able to stay at home full time.

now we get to play the waiting game. since all the decisions and plans have been made i can't wait until march! everyone keeps telling me to enjoy every minute and not to rush it, which i am trying to do but we all know i'm not a patient person. i have a countdown list of all the fun things going on in between now and then like; my birthday. halloween. thanksgiving. christmas. new years eve. valentines day. and FINALLY st. patricks day. so im thinking that since there is about 1 thing each month the time will pass quickly. also since i'm due on st.patricks day we have decided on patrick for a boy and patty for a girl! (haha, joke) whooty whoot for baby mott!!